i've been

wanting to get out for a while .

and friday was the day that i actually went out for a really long time . and boy did it feel good . sure, it lasted a mere hour and all i got out of it was a medium sized cup of pinkberry, but i got to share that measly hour with a very good person . i realized how much i had taken for granted that day . my family's trust, the trust of others around me, all of that does not measure up to my selfishness . i just wish that one person would recognize this, because i am sick of feeling like i'm locked up, in a prison cell, no pun intended whatsoever . not many people who read this will get this pun, but bear with me . the story is really not worth telling . i cannot wait for the day when i can finally grab life by the horns, because right now, i'm being held back by very eager hands, and i just wish they'd learn to let go . but that day may never even come . so i'll have to settle for rapid starbucks or pinkbrerry trips, unti l i can prove that i am ready to be out in the real world again .