it's a heavy price to pay, this heart

there comes a time when everyone must come face to face with their demons . accept that they are different from everyone else . and that those differences that seperate them from that almost tragic world, can either make them or break them, whichever they choose . a demon is like a bad hair day; it comes unexpectedly, and you always try to work your way around it . but it's time to face that bad hair day, and take it on headstrong, instead of working around it and handling it only when someone points it out to you . i have my fair share of demons, and they eat away at me day by day . i mishandle my demons, often letting them get the best of me, and it leaves me in a fragile and vulnerable state . many people mistake this mishandling as bitterness and cynicism, but really, i don't how to store away those demons . i have trouble filling my mind with happy and serene thoughts, and that same mind gets filled with negative and impulsive thoughts that drive me to do things i have no desire to do . this may be hard to understand, i know . it's not easy living with demons . that's why my advice to everyone is to remember everything that's good and well in their lives, so that those demons won't take over you like they have me . for your own sake, at least .